Good day everyone. It's been a long time since I've made a journal entry on my page. Although I'm sure most don't care, I personally look at it as neglect. Ever since I've moved, there has been pressure and frustration that does nothing more than deter me from my artwork. So I'm being more bold about making time to do what I love. Seeing as finances are tighter than ever, I won't be able to afford doing much more than art anyways! haha.

So where do I begin? It's just been so long since I've had a chance to speak out about where I'm going, and more importantly my art. Although I haven't been producing much, I've been doing alot of studying and observing. Such as visting the art museum here in jacksonville and all the local shops that had portrayed local artists' work. There is some very impressive styles and techniques around here, but what felt awkward was that none of it seemed to just blow me away. Of course there were some peices that stood out and had me stare in admirable envy, but for the most part it felt good to know that maybe I too can get my foot in the door.

I need to get the ball rolling... It's just been too long since i've had prints or canvas to sell. It's not so much about the money as it is getting my presence out there. Which is why I want to do something different. Of course forgive my confidentiality, but if I splurged out all my plans - I can't help but believe I would regret it later, nothing personal . I just don't trust people like I use to.

I think this past month has been a fair representation as to why. A Couple fist fights and equal police each time - I can't remember the last time I had the police called on me for getting in a fist fight with another person. I guess that's the florida mentality. There are alot of punk kids here who can't do much more than hit the buttons on thier cell phone and flick you off from the distance. I never stood for it where I came from, and I wont stand for it here. I'm BIG on respect, thats just the way I was brought up. Another thing I learned is that not everyone goes to work to work. I goto work because I have no other choice, because I'm incharge of my money flow, I'm in charge of my expenses and I depend on each paycheck to make it to the next. I find it discouraging that people only a couple years older than me are still living with thier parents and buying parts for thier cars, dvds, videogames, and not even paying rent. Again with this childish punk mentality. Don't even get my started on the crazy women down here...

On the flipside I've met alot of really cool people, all of which arn't from here as well. Shooting pool, drinking, and relaxing after a 10+ hour day is great when you can all agree on the way things are. Lots of memorable moments down here are all thanks to my friends and I hope we call all just stick it out till better things come along. Maybe I should start playing the lottery...